Expensive Gamble

As I have noted, I feel as though I would be able to initiate some kind of physical contact with my “crush” if I were able to get him in the same bed with me. If I am able to get him in the same bed with me, and I am able to initiate some kind of physical contact with him, I believe he will respond; hesitantly at first, but I honestly believe that at least on some level, my “crush” has the same kind of feelings for me, even if he a) hasn’t realized it yet, or b) doesn’t understand it yet.

As I have also noted, I have no way of justifying the two of us sleeping in the same bed because we are roommates…why would he come sleep in my room when his is across the hall? My plan.

My parents have told me that upon my graduation from college (a year from now) they plan on giving me a vacation as a gift, and I’ll be able to take one person. Even if I weren’t “crushing” on this man, I would still take him because he is my best friend. However, I can’t help but to see this as an opportunity. I brought up the idea of a two week long cruise to him, and he responded with absolute excitement. I figure I’ll probably use the first week to loosen things up…I’ll sleep naked, change in front of him, bring up sexual conversations, watch late night “porn” on the ship’s HBO…that sort of thing. My hope is that by the second week I’ll be able to pull of some staged “contact” with him. For example, a friendly and brotherly slap on his naked ass while he’s changing won’t be so awkward at this point. Hopefully, by the time the trip is over, I’ll have the intimacy I’ve been longing for with him or at least have the seed that I planted that has lain dormant for so long finally begin to grow.